Looking back

mad

I wonder on some level if we have asked to be in this time and place.

“But I don’t want to go among mad people,” 

Alice remarked.

“Oh, you can’t help that,” said the Cat: 

“we’re all mad here. I’m mad. You’re mad.”

“How do you know I’m mad?” 

said Alice.

“You must be,” 

said the Cat, "

or you wouldn’t have come here.”

LIfe is short enjoy it

 We are in a good spot here and we don't leave often.  Vacation land...  is that boring.... sometimes.  Should we climb out of the rut and do things.  Probably.  Do we do it?  I can't make up a bucket list for the life of me.  Things I want to do before I die..... what things do I crave doing that I am not doing? 

Am I content with the status quo?  

 

Big question.

 

Life is short, and who knows if we have a week, a year or ten years.  7 days, 365, or 3650......

Big questions and for now not answered, but definitely food for thought.

Christmas new style

 This year Christmas was minimal because of Joan's fall and my total lack of interest.  The fall was an excuse and aren't we thankful for that.  Not the fall, but the excuse of it.  

The holiday has not been inspiring, fun, warm, nice in donkey ages 

and this year it felt better because I more or less ignored it.  

One of the only things I had planned to do was send our holiday wishes and I messed with them

 and took a new picture to use.  

Never sent the message except a few copies I mailed to a few people who sent Christmas cards.  

Some who sent late cards got nada.

the swan pleased me and here it is in a few variations.  

A SISTER IS FOREVER....

WHEN YOU'R HAPPY

I'M HAPPY.

WHEN YOUR HEART HURTS,

 MINE HURTS

challenge

 I, for my entire life, have done the bare minimal.  anything gets tough I get going.  not finishing studies, not becoming an expert, not, not not.

I want to before I leave this earth become good at something.  I need to finish the exercise, the whatever.  

I need to accept the challenge.

I will learn to bake bread

I will do Qigong till I am good at it.

I can do this.  I CAN DO THIS.  I STARTED TODAY .....

i NEED TO GET UP AND OFF MY LAZY ASS AND DO SOMETHING WELL.

daisies

 

big rains last night

 our vernal pond had almost dried up and was a vernal puddle until the 3 or 4 inches last night.  Many roads are closed because of flooding.  We will be going into summer with a good water table.  Best of all the geese and ducks have a swimming hole again.  Happiness is a vernal pond in the front yard.  What a treat.  What a treasure.  What a divine gift.

listening

 It has come to me that it annoys me when I am speaking

 that that person is not bothering to listen. 

They are busy doing something else.

Tuned out looking at something.

 I have been guilty of this.  We all are. 

 Communication is so off with texts and screens that the phone 

and in person seem the best, but have found them lacking.